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Friday, October 20, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Holey Moley Panic Attack Party!
Man oh mighty man have I been going through it this last week. We fly out tonight and tomorrow I will meet much of my biological family on my paternal side. Father, Aunt, Uncle, cousins.
On top of which I have had additional phone contact with my youngest sister Susie, part of this family. I will probably go up to see her again in a few weeks after no contact for many years.
So everynight I seem to have panic attack symptoms. They last hours and hours. And if I'm lucky I fall asleep sometime in the wee hours of the next day.
Whoever doubts the power of stress is stupid. Simply put. Truth.
On top of which I have had additional phone contact with my youngest sister Susie, part of this family. I will probably go up to see her again in a few weeks after no contact for many years.
So everynight I seem to have panic attack symptoms. They last hours and hours. And if I'm lucky I fall asleep sometime in the wee hours of the next day.
Whoever doubts the power of stress is stupid. Simply put. Truth.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Ok next week is coming up!
Wow, well building on the Sister Sister post I have some wild news!
Next Thursday I am going to meet my biological father for the first time!
I am going to a first cousins wedding and my Aunt Margarets birthday. Margaret is my bio fathers sister. So I will be meeting all of them at the wedding of my cousin Jennifer.
Thank god Maarten is going to attend with me. Even at 42 this brings up a lot of emotions for me. It is always intense to meet people from the same gene pool! When I lived in Holland I was struck by how family resemblance was so strong.
I have always had a fascination in studying children and parents faces. Something I think that comes from finding out I was adopted at the age of 5.
So no doubt barring anything really dramatic I will probably have a good post next Sunday and pictures as well.
At the very least it will put some final closure on this chapter of my life.
My Aunt Margaret is however terminally ill and so I pray she will be well for her daughters wedding and I am quite excited to hear about my Italian heritage and see photographs of my ancestors.
I will probably be inspired to write a poem or two over all of this and you can read about those at my new Poof, A Poem blog.
Next Thursday I am going to meet my biological father for the first time!
I am going to a first cousins wedding and my Aunt Margarets birthday. Margaret is my bio fathers sister. So I will be meeting all of them at the wedding of my cousin Jennifer.
Thank god Maarten is going to attend with me. Even at 42 this brings up a lot of emotions for me. It is always intense to meet people from the same gene pool! When I lived in Holland I was struck by how family resemblance was so strong.
I have always had a fascination in studying children and parents faces. Something I think that comes from finding out I was adopted at the age of 5.
So no doubt barring anything really dramatic I will probably have a good post next Sunday and pictures as well.
At the very least it will put some final closure on this chapter of my life.
My Aunt Margaret is however terminally ill and so I pray she will be well for her daughters wedding and I am quite excited to hear about my Italian heritage and see photographs of my ancestors.
I will probably be inspired to write a poem or two over all of this and you can read about those at my new Poof, A Poem blog.
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